Wednesday, February 16, 2011

So, I've started on my course of anti anxiety/depression pills (I'm doing them for the anxiety). I've only taken one, and I can already begin to feel minor effects.

I feel like I'm mildly tipsy... like I've had one drink and am enjoying it. I can understand why a lot of people can't stand this kind of mind set, however, I for one, love it.

See, the thing is, not only was my anxiety destroying my life, but I actually work better, have better aim and think clearer when tipsy, or have this same feeling. My knife accuracy is a lot better, I'm alert and I still have this buzzing feeling. I can concentrate on a book and my thoughts are not scattered all over the place. My only side effect so far is a mild dizziness if I get up too quickly (which I'm used to from previous medications).

So, I'm happy that these drugs are having a good effect on me so far. I made sure that I'm taking the lowest dosage of the safest drug possible, so I guess I didn't have much to worry about in the first place. I was anxious about taking the anxiety pills! The only side effects take place in the first week only, and are a little bit of nausea and dizziness (along with constipation, but I'll just eat some grapes). They did have some other side effects listed, but they only occurred if the person had a pre-existing condition related to it.

So yes, my first experience on these drugs. I've been putting it off until I was an adult because I know that these kinds of things can fuck you up when you take them as a kid. I may not need them after this first course of a month. I'm mainly using them to face my fears, and once I've done that, I don't think I'll need them anymore.

Wish me luck, and sorry about another "me" post :P

18 comments:

  1. having never done drugs i cannot really relate. however, knowing MANY friends that have tried them, i can sort of see where you are coming from.

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  2. Good luck man. Better times always come, sooner or later :D

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  3. Hope the pills make you feel better man.

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  4. Good luck dude. Nice to see you're doing better.

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  5. Those "me" posts aren't cynical enough. But I hope you'll feel better.

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  6. Actually taking the pills I felt no real effects although others said that they could see them. I hope they work for you :P

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  7. i used to take depression meds, but i found (and now research supports) that gettting daily exercise made me feel great. plus that doesnt cost anything and the only side effect is lookin good...

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  8. Good luck bro - I agree with Candlej regular exercise helped my fiancée too... its' all about brain chemistry :)

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  9. Agree about the exercise, wish I could be that motivated again. At least I used to be.

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  10. Good luck... I quit meds about 6 years ago and am not lookin back. Following to see more!

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  11. I think I might have anxiety as well. I can't concentrate on anything for a long time.

    What I did find is that if I put a song that I like on repeat (soemthing not too fast, not too slow), I tend to focus better.

    Just my 2 cents.

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  12. Of course you don't need them anymore.

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  13. Funny you mention that, I knew a friend who I used to go to Uni with. And the only time he could work - and would do very well. Was when he was high on weed, here he was in the white space it was called (where all the computers where with the expensive software) working far more better being intoxicated than normal O_O

    Each to his own I suppose.

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  14. Mildly tipsy all the time? maybe that's what I need. I don't know If my level of depression would get me a prescription or not.

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