So, I've started on my course of anti anxiety/depression pills (I'm doing them for the anxiety). I've only taken one, and I can already begin to feel minor effects.

I feel like I'm mildly tipsy... like I've had one drink and am enjoying it. I can understand why a lot of people can't stand this kind of mind set, however, I for one, love it.

See, the thing is, not only was my anxiety destroying my life, but I actually work better, have better aim and think clearer when tipsy, or have this same feeling. My knife accuracy is a lot better, I'm alert and I still have this buzzing feeling. I can concentrate on a book and my thoughts are not scattered all over the place. My only side effect so far is a mild dizziness if I get up too quickly (which I'm used to from previous medications).

So, I'm happy that these drugs are having a good effect on me so far. I made sure that I'm taking the lowest dosage of the safest drug possible, so I guess I didn't have much to worry about in the first place. I was anxious about taking the anxiety pills! The only side effects take place in the first week only, and are a little bit of nausea and dizziness (along with constipation, but I'll just eat some grapes). They did have some other side effects listed, but they only occurred if the person had a pre-existing condition related to it.

So yes, my first experience on these drugs. I've been putting it off until I was an adult because I know that these kinds of things can fuck you up when you take them as a kid. I may not need them after this first course of a month. I'm mainly using them to face my fears, and once I've done that, I don't think I'll need them anymore.

Wish me luck, and sorry about another "me" post :P

Well, that was an a astoundingly good movie. With most movies these days, about half way through I begin to want it to end. Not this time. It kept me griped right the way through. Even though some of the dialogue was lengthy, it was necessary to keep up the pioneer character. Not only was the acting top notch, but the plot was progressive and made sense (well, most of it. Some was a little hazy). True Grit is something I definitely recommend seeing.

So, moving on from praise, I move to my usual cynical attitude towards cinematic releases.

For some reason, a channel in my country, which I can only compare to Fox News in its accuracy and bias, seems to love picking up on movies (or receiving money from the marketing agents) that are CRAP. They will give them good reviews, call them family friendly and also disembowel movies that are not "agreeable". For example, on a current affairs show, they ran an expose` detailing how horridly gory and scary the recent Harry Potter movie was, and warned families from going to see it, saying how the director had gone off track and lost his child audience. However, when Yogi Bear came out they, even with no monetary back up, recommended it, called it hilarious and great for all ages. I would seriously consider severely hurting myself over seeing that movie. Another example is their promotion of Gulivers Travels, which was not a BAD movie, just very hyped up.

I've found that good movies, even children's movies, are often ignored simply because they spent too much money on a well written script and not enough on promotion. I LOVE seeing movies that have ambiguous trailers (not doomsday ones, they're just stupid). I can't predict the plot, I go in with no expectations, and that makes the whole experience that much better. I love how they're not given a million plot summaries and splattered all over the internet. Even after reading a review for Black Swan, I still can't see the resolution from it (or choose to ignore it), and I can't wait to see it!

People need to realize that just because something is the biggest and brightest, doesn't make it the best.